Monday, December 26, 2011

I have a plan

While going over my food intake tonight with Adam,
I confessed I had no carbs or fiber today.
My excuse was the day was unplanned.
He told me,
"In oder to achieve success,
you must have a plan"
But, tonight I got another 25 miles in on the bike...
The goal for the week is to drop 3 lbs.
What is your goal for the week??

Friday, December 23, 2011

Pay It Forward

Since "Santa" stuck a card on the bulletin board for me at work...
with a very large amount of cash in it,
I decided to pay it forward.
I painted this for a co-worker tonight
and hope to surprise her with it tomorrow.
It is a portrait of her infant Granddaughter that has been fighting cancer.
Merry Christmas everyone,
tonight I was in my element and enjoyed every minute of it!

Sunday, December 11, 2011

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Casey Ford Alexander

This is brilliant work by
Casey Ford Alexander,
from the edit to the narration.
I love the whole concept.
This depicts our world today
with social networks and
the intricate ways we are evolving
with our communication and relationships with one another.
To fully understand the creative intent,
you must watch both videos:

I woke up with this in my head.

Thursday, November 17, 2011


I want someone to love me.

To enjoy me long enough to understand the full me.

So how do I make the change in myself to get what my soul is longing for?

Over and over Im left with what I dont want.

Lies, broken promises, an empty bed and a broken heart.

Im to the point I dont know what to do and Im afraid to try again.

Saturday, November 05, 2011

The Way I See It

When single, I think we are always secretly looking,
regardless if we say we want a relationship or not.
For its the person we are looking for
and not the title or label of our interactions we seek.
Its the difference between those that settle for the relationship
those that choose to be with the right person.

What is Love?

Something so powerful and intricate its hard to articulate

but let me tell you this:

Its touch can put me to sleep

and its absence keeps me up through the night.

Yet its what gets me out of bed in the morning

and makes me work hard.

It strikes an emotion so deep in me,

its the greatest con artist I know.

Love made me commit and sacrifice my dreams,

Yet it was love that made me start all over.

It can not be bought or sold.

Its pure and without a doubt the most wanted thing on this planet.

Its what we think we have...but don't

Its a master of disguise.

Love is magical

Love will make you delirious and blind.

It will make you high and intoxicated,

its potion can take away your appetite, even your breath.

Love is what makes us human.

Love makes us feel alive.

I believe its the basis of every emotion we feel and express.

Love, it means all of this and so much more.

Thinking of my father tonight

I miss the sound of him singing and playing
and I hope he still does.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

WoMAN in the Mirror

You never know how you treat or act towards people
until someone acts like that to you.
Its at that point when one can see their true self
and either change it
or accept that they are douche bag.
I vote for change.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Stop it B! This is serious!

Im A Dreamer

Fact of the matter is,
when you get to this point in life,
you know what you want.
You acquire habits and routines.
Your puzzle piece becomes less round,
more jagged and intricate.
It becomes harder to fit.
Therefore you dont waste the time anymore.

Some call it jaded,
I call it wise.
I actually love getting older.
I enjoy learning about myself and others and how we all
relate to one another on this crazy planet.

But then again,
Im a dreamer.

Saturday, October 08, 2011

Lady Liberty

The Statue of Liberty is female.
She is strong, proud and independent.
She stands alone with her head looking forward and ladies,
you CAN too!!!

Sunday, October 02, 2011

He who works with his hands is a laborer.
He who works with his hands
and his head is a craftsman.
He who works with his hands,
head and heart is an artist.
~St. Francis of Assisi

Sunday, September 25, 2011


“They say a good love is one that sits you down,
gives you a drink of water,
and pats you on top of the head.
But I say a good love is one that casts you into the wind,
sets you ablaze,
makes you burn through the skies
and ignite the night like a phoenix;
the kind that cuts you loose like a wildfire
and you can't stop running
simply because you keep on burning everything that you touch!
I say that's a good love;
one that burns and flies,
and you run with it!”
~C. JoyBell

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Amanda Delight

"You may not know it,
but I see beyond the pretty face, blonde hair and sweet personality.
There is an artist trying to come back out.
A person seeking passion and someone to be passionate with."

Floyd Mayweather


Saturday, September 10, 2011

My Skin

Tonight as I was laying on the floor mapping out pictures
for an up and coming art show,
I couldnt help notice my hip bones.
Its been many years since I have felt them
and as odd as it sounds,
they make me happy.
So, I captured them with my iphone.
But, it cant go unnoticed that no matter how much I alter my body,
my skin tells the unspoken visual story of motherhood.
A story, I would never want to rewrite.
My skin is a badge,
an earned plaque of labor, sleepless nights, selflessness and sacrifice.

Thursday, September 08, 2011

I need more sleep.

0900 - scrambled eggs with salsa
1300 - salad
1700 - turkey sandwich
1900 - gym:
4 miles of cardio
50 situps with a 12 lbs weight on my chest
15 push ups alternated with mule kicks
3 plank 20 sec holds
2100 - salad with chicken and egg

I almost didnt go tonight.
I came home and almost fell asleep.
So tired from lack of sleep.

I listen to her too...

Wednesday, September 07, 2011

Anything IS Possible

I feel good about my progress in the gym
and with my calorie intake lately.
Fat pads have shrunk,
some even vanished and bones are appearing.
The boss went to bed happy,
and now I can too.
G'night my friends.
May you all stroll down the path
you were meant to walk.
I know I am.

What I want and dont want in a man.

Must Haves:
  • Emotionally Generous...I must have a partner who enjoys people and is generous with his compassion, attention, sympathies and love.
  • Chemistry...I must feel deeply in love with and attracted to my partner.
  • Responsible...My partner must be financially responsible.
  • Style and Appearance...I must have someone who cares about the way they look and dress and has a sense of personal style.
  • Affectionate...I must have someone who is comfortable giving and receiving affection.
  • Attractiveness...I must have a partner who is considered "very attractive" by most current standards.
  • Personal Habits...I must have a partner who maintains high standards of personal hygiene, orderliness, and other personal habits.
  • Loyal...I must have someone I can count on to always support me.
  • Autonomy...I must have a partner who will give me space to be my own person.
  • Passionate...I must have someone who is willing to explore our sexual desires with passion and understanding.

Can't Stands:
  • Drugs...I can't stand someone who uses illegal recreational drugs.
  • Cheap...I can't stand someone who is so tightfisted as to be impractical.
  • Cheating...I can't stand someone who takes advantage of people.
  • Lazy...I can't stand someone who likes to spend excessive time sleeping, resting or being a "couch potato."
  • Poor Hygiene...I can't stand someone who is not clean.
  • Fiscally Irresponsible...I can't stand someone who is incapable of managing their money.
  • Lying...I can't stand someone who lies to anyone-especially to me.
  • Infidelity...I can't stand someone who engages in sex outside a committed relationship.
  • Addictions...I can't stand someone who currently suffers from addictions.
  • Excessive Overweight...I can't stand someone who is overweight.

Tonights workout

0800 - yogurt
1030 - 2 hard boiled eggs
1300 - veggie wrap
1700 - a few slices of turkey
1800-1900 - Gym:
31 min of cardio burning 336 cal
100 sit-ups on the stability ball with a 12 lbs medicine ball
3 twenty sec planks
15 pushups of set with 30 mule kicks
1915 - Lean MR shake


Here's to those who try their hardest to be good enough for everyone,
who spend hours reading random quotes to find the right one,
who listen to the same song dozens of times because the lyrics mean a lot,
who deserve so much more than they get
and are willing to fight for it,
and whose wish upon a shooting star was wasted
on someone who never really cared.

Tuesday, September 06, 2011

0830 - yogurt
1030 - 2 hard boiled eggs
1300 - salad
1700 - 2 hard boiled eggs
1800-1900 Gym:
3 miles of cardio burning 337 cal
3 sets planks 20 sec holds
3 sets of 20 8lbs medicine ball passes
3 sets of 20 sit-ups on the on the stability ball with the 8lbs weight.
1930 - salad with chicken and egg

48 oz of water today
1000 - small bowl of kaski with water (not as bad as you would think)
1300 - five mile hike in the winners trail
1700 - salad with chicken
1900 - yogurt
2100 - two hard boiled egg whites
about 32 oz of water today
Hand Tram Girdwood, Alaska

Monday, September 05, 2011

Dear Amanda Delight

I love learning about myself through the eyes of others. I believe its a viewpoint that is often hard to see as we judge our own actions and emotions. Therefore I would like to share this correspondence between myself and another man that I have been dodging for a while.

HIM: I think you're afraid of a guy liking you.

ME: I think you are absolutely right.

HIM: Hey, I think I fully understand you. That is why I will bid you farewell. I apologize for giving you unwanted attention. I don't know how to put it poetically, everyone chases that warm feeling of beauty and happiness. That is why you're probably an artist.
"We do our best work when we're sad depress or happy. Painting and drawing is like endlessly making love, only you know when you're satisfied. We always want to capture that perfect moonlight, that perfect sunset. We believe nobody will understand us, and we leave our expression up for interpretation in our art."
I want to end this with something funny and sincere, I don't know where this expression came from but toodaloo . May one day you find your sunset ;)

I read this email this afternoon as I came out of the woods from a 5 mile hike in the rain. He is right, I am looking for perfection....and Im cool with that because I wouldnt want to alter my life for anything short of a sunset or the perfect moonlight. After all my heart belongs to another and I do have my art which is like endless love making.

Sunday Routine

On sunday evenings,
I spend time preparing my meals for the week.
I buy yogurt, lettuce, eggs and chicken.
I find this saves me time and money throughout the week.
Its easy and simple.
First I slept in..again
1200 - turkey sandwich on wheat bread with lettuce and tomato
1400 - 1500 Gym
1 mile of cardio
then I repeated the following list 3 times:
3 planks for 20 sec hold
10 stability ball push ups
10 mule kicks
20 leg lifts on the ball
20 reverse sit ups on the stability ball
20 sit ups on the ball with a 8 lbs wt on my chest
20 sit ups on the ball while extending my arms and passing the 8lbs wt over my head down to my feet
20 side to side medicine ball passes
1600 - 3 hard boiled egg whites
...omg thats all I had to eat today...
(this is why it is important to record what you eat)

Push ups
Reverse sit ups
Leg Lifts

Saturday, September 03, 2011

Todays Regimen

First I slept in.
1500 - turkey sandwich on wheat bread with lettuce and tomato
1600 - 1800 Gym
1 mile of cardio
then I repeated the following list 3 times:
3 planks for 20 sec hold
10 stability ball push ups
10 mule kicks
20 leg lifts on the ball
20 reverse sit ups on the stability ball
20 sit ups on the ball with a 8 lbs wt on my chest
20 sit ups on the ball while extending my arms and passing the 8lbs wt over my head down to my feet
20 side to side medicine ball passes
Then I did another mile of cardio...mainly because I followed a hot guy into the cardio room.
1830 - 6 oz of Lean MR shake
2000 - cup of tomato soup

I drank a ton of water today.