Sunday, July 05, 2009

Ryan Leslie

18x24 Oil on Canvas 
ⓒ Amanda Delight

I Was Asked Today

"What are you looking for?" 

I dont know. I dont know much of anything these days. Im floating by in a stream of daily routines that bore me to no end.
I paint till I run out of canvas or ideas, which ever comes first. 

Im tired of men wanting one thing...and its not my brain.
Im sick of being alone, but I dont want anyone new. I dont want to hurt any more. 

I love life and I love being myself. Im stuck in limbo with no direction. The only direction I have is, knowing I need a change.

Stack My Walls Up High

"I was naïve
Your love was like candy
Artificially sweet
I was deceived by the wrapping
I should have known
I was used for amusement"

I am becoming much greater than the idealistic version of whom you think I am. 

I am a woman that grew up being broken down, only to evolve into a person that has more strength and determination than any man you will meet. A man could never give me what I need, because those are things that only I can obtain on my own.

 I bare the name that was given to me at my birth not of my father or my ex lover, but a name that has been passed down from woman to woman. I am Amanda Delight and I am walking away from love and running with my dreams...and ladies, you can do it too!