Thursday, March 31, 2011

Im a Modern Day Hippy

I love the symbolism here and how I relate it to myself.
She is technically still in the car,
but is reaching out.
Even though she still maintains a part of her,
she can join him and I admire him for supporting that.

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

Simple Rewards

Tired of the now baggy jeans and baggy bras that I bought 6 months ago,
I decided to go get fitted again.
I walked in wearing a 36DD and size 12 jeans.
I came home with size 8 jeans and 34D bras!! I tried on a size 6 which is my goal, they fit me, but I still purchased two pairs of the 8's. I like my jean somewhat loose, so Im going to give myself another month or so before I go get them.
But when I do, it will be time to celebrate!
...might even buy a lil black dress.

Monday, March 28, 2011

"You Cant Always Get What You Want, And If You Try Sometime You Find, You Get What You Need"

I want more than sex,
I want companionship,
I want someone to have my back,
I want to share life with someone.
Is that too much to ask for?

The fact of the matter is, I havent tried. I need to get out and meet people.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

"The Girl you just called fat? She's starved herself & lost 15lbs.
The Boy you just called stupid? He has a learning disability & studies 4hrs a night.
The Girl you just called ugly? She spends hours putting makeup on hoping people will like her.
The Boy you just tripped? He is already abused enough at home.
There's more to people than you think."

Thanks But No Thanks

A got-milk ad I "refined"

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Why did you move?

‎"I left with nothing in hopes of gaining everything" ~A.Delight

I had a dream

I had a dream last night that I became a motivational speaker for weight loss.
Particularly geared to people that turned to surgery to get fast results. Ive been told that I can get to my goals without going under the knife... and Im going to see if they are right. Taken with my iphone, these are size 12 jeans (clearly too big) and a medium shirt with a 36 DD bra.

Saturday, March 19, 2011

I Fear

Diet and Exercise

When someone says they lost the weight through diet and exercise, I feel as though they are not truly answering the question as to how they did it. So I thought I would try and explain mine.

This is me Dec of 2008.
While in the hospital giving birth to my daughter, I top the scales at 230lbs. In this picture I was approx 175, I dont truly know because at this point I has stopped looking in the mirrors, let alone weighing myself. Pictures of me like this are extremely rare. I happened to stumble upon this one via a friends facebook photo album.

First of all, you have to want a change.
Its a lot of work and its something that you have to always be conscious of. I admit, Im obsessed with it...but I feel as though you will never see a change if you arent to some degree committed to a healthier you.

I avoid most meat, though I dont recommend it and I try to consume what I can for its protein value only. I mainly drink water, rice milk and orange juice. I enjoy all types of salads and soups. Pasta is my down fall and I try to limit my white-carb intake. I also try to avoid sugar in the juice I drink and an excessive amount of salt in the soup I eat. I eat this way, because it is what I enjoy, and its what works for me. I dont consider it a "diet" its just what I eat. My life doesnt revolve around food. I eat when Im hungry and always try to consider is portion size.

I feel as though mixing it up to avoid a routine helps with the longevity of staying with it. It is however good to get in a routine of WHEN you are doing it, so you stay committed to a time. My personal goal it to strengthen and tighten my core and build my cardio. So I combine those in my workouts.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there."

Some may think that this is a Bob Marley song or quote, however it is not. Though I have yet to find its original origin. Its lovely and beautiful either way.

Note To Self

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Anna van der Rhee

I shot this with my new camera in CPT so others could be inspired like I was by Anna's strength. I recorded her doing this over and over again...I lost count how many times she pulled herself up!

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

He told me:

Kincaid Park, Alaska
"You are an artist that is passionate, creative, soulful, and introspective.
I can tell you have felt pain and hurt, and it drives you.
It makes you more caring. It makes you take risks.
It makes you cautious. It makes you a better artist.
It makes you pursue true happiness and your dreams even more.
It makes you want to meet someone to share all of life’s experiences."

...and he is so right.

Thursday, March 03, 2011

"Ready For Love"

"I am ready for love
Why are you hiding from me
I'd quickly give my freedom
To be held in your captivity

I am ready for love
All of the joy and the pain
And all the time that it takes
Just to stay in your good grace
Lately I've been thinking
Maybe you're not ready for me
Maybe you think I need to learn maturity
They say watch what you ask for
Cause you might receive
But if you ask me tomorrow
I'll say the same thing

I am ready for love
Would you please lend me your ear?
I promise I won't complain
I just need you to acknowledge I am here

If you give me half a chance
I'll prove this to you
I will be patient, kind, faithful and true
To a man who loves music
A man who loves art
Respect's the spirit world
And thinks with his heart

I am ready for love
If you'll take me in your hands
I will learn what you teach
And do the best that I can

I am ready for love
Here with an offering of
My voice
My Eyes
My soul
My mind

Tell me what is enough
To prove I am ready for love

I am ready"
~India Arie