Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Toddlers & Tiaras

Im appalled at Toddlers & Tiaras...
once again as I catch a few min of it in passing.
These mothers are atrocious and are abusing their children.
Why is this socially accepted and broadcasted?
Shame on you TLC!
I would never duck tape, spray tan, glue eye lashes on, bleach out hair
or sugar dope my crying child
to make myself feel better about my own failures.

Friday, January 27, 2012

Look In The Mirror

Im starting to despise the way men judge me.
Im not a size zero and will never be.
Knowing this is how men see me makes me hate my image.
It makes me want to delete every photo Ive ever posted online
and join an all women's gym.
But I have to tell myself that I am beautiful regardless.
I think when we judge and want to change our own images,
we start to expect that of others.
But really, just because we dont like our own imperfections,
doesnt mean others have to be perfect.

Monday, January 23, 2012

365 Days of Freedom

Exactly a year ago right now, I was inflight from WA due to land here in Anchorage. I had tears in my eyes as the Boss slept on my lap. I knew that I had finally found freedom and my new life could begin. Since then it feels as though I have been on vacation from life, no stress and no worries. Though I miss my friends and family dearly, its a small price to pay to be able to breath again. Here is a pic of the boss taken with my BB in Boston before it lost service. I am thankful for the angel that guided me, the Browns, Adam, all of my new coworkers and everyone else I have met along the way ♥ G'night Anchorage and G'morning east coast, I'll be home again some day.
~A. Delight

Let it be.

Be soft.
Do not let the world make you hard.
Do not let the pain make you hate.
Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness.
Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree,
you still believe it to be a BEAUTIFUL place.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

Cardio Tonight

I burned 894 calories on the precor 100i
set at level 19 for 55 min
If these little legs can do it,
Youre up,
I challenge you to get it!

Be Spontaneous!

As I left work today I noticed the sun setting over the horizon behind the mountains.
I drove up flattop to see the view of the city below and the ocean/mountains in the distance before it became completely dark.
The pictures I took with my iphone,
hardly do the view or colors justice.
This was exactly what I have been needing...color.

Dear Amanda Delight

Just when I think I'm crazy for writing
and sharing what I do,
someone like Anthony sends me an email
validating my journey
and my reasons for sharing it!
I am flattered and honored
to inspire a change in someone's life!

"Hey Amanda,

I know we really don't know each other but I wanted to take a moment and say thank you. I've been following your story for awhile now and find that everything you've done for yourself and your daughter is nothing less then amazing. How you transformed yourself with loosing weight and how much love you give your daughter is awesome.

7 months ago I hit rock bottom and due to being unhealthy I was over weight and had some medical problems. After reading one of your posts I went back and read a lot of what you had done, with moving and the struggles you had been through. This made me make a bold move in my life to better myself. That night I gave up all fried foods and soda. Since that time I've dropped 3 pants sizes and feel a million times better.

Now I've had a lot of help along the way but it was your story that gave me a spark. Now I know I'll have more time on this earth with my son and wife, thank you for being you. You truly are special and deserve some just as good as you. You will always in my thoughts when I'm running on that trend mill. Thank you from the bottom of my heart."


Monday, January 16, 2012

Color Deprivation

As a visual artist, surviving Alaska,

I'm becoming aware of my surroundings

and how they are effecting my mood

and creative process.

Lets examine Color theory, I've read a lot about it.

But one thing involving the study of color

that has never crossed my mind until now is color deprivation.

There is little to none literature on the web about color deprivation.

I feel as though I'm experiencing it...

and it has me exploring what it does and how it's making me feel.

I think I'm going to make a narrative video on it.

The grey sky and vast snowy surrounds being my source of inspiration

or lack there of.

Welcome to my world.

Sunday, January 15, 2012

WOD by Amanda Delight

Workout of the Day
1 mile of cardio
3 sets of 15 back extensions
3 sets of 10 ball squats against the wall
3 sets of 10 assisted chin lifts
3 sets of 12 shoulder presses (15lbs)
3 sets of 12 upright rows (20lbs)

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

The Struggle With Self Image

After being posted on facebook for 2 days, this photo got 19 likes and 27 comments. Photos like this get the most attention (maybe for the confidence I elude) yet this isnt the real me. This photo is distorted from perspective and my cloths are hiding my skins distortion from pregnancy and years of over eating. Here is my question. Without the photos, how do I get men to see the real me? I would like to think regardless of my shape or size someone would like me for me. Yet...Im shown time and time again in the dating world that this isnt true. If I loose 20 lbs and remove the loose skin will that help? Better yet, can a man be attracted to a woman that is permanently physically scared by another man?

Im so tired of not being good enough.

Sunday, January 08, 2012

Note to self

"It wasn't the fall that killed him.
It was the sudden stop."

Dont stop doing what you love.
Take chances and risks!
Free yourself from the lines you sketch
and boundaries others set.
You took the leap,
now its time to keep going!

Saturday, January 07, 2012

Know Your Worth, I Know Mine

You are beautiful.
You are talented.
You have so much to offer
and you deserve the very basic in life from a partner.
If they can't even pay attention to you,
its time to move on.

This is what I tell myself and
you should do the same.