Dear Joseph

My friend Joseph posed the question tonight,

"Love? Hmmmm.....please refresh my memory."

Here was my response:

"Sure.

Its something to guard

and only give to those that give it back.

Its the most powerful thing I know.

It heals,

bonds,

concours,

crushes,

builds and destroys.

Its my greatest inspiration.

Love."

Legs

Today I consumed:

A small banana,

6 oz of nonfat yogurt that contained 12 grams of sugar,

1 oz of dry roasted planters peanuts,

6 oz of oriental noodle soup,

a steelhead sushi roll,

a small romaine salad with raw chopped broccoli,

10 oz steak.

I drank about 10 fl oz of gatorade

10 oz of water

8 oz of rice milk.

Exercise:

I started off with a 3 mile trail run at HillTop

Then I spent 30 min at the gym, that consisted of;

3 sets of 10 reps at 5 lbs of horizontal leg curls

3 sets of 10 reps at 25 lbs of seated leg curls

3 sets of 10 reps at 95 lbs of hip ad/abduction

100 consecutive sit-ups on the stability ball

Anorexia is for fat people

Tonight I cooked and ate a steak on my own for the first time ever.

While I was cooking it,

I texted Adam to tell him that I weighed myself at the gym

and I am 7 lbs heaver than when I stepped on the scale a couple months ago.

I told him that I feel like a fatty

and to sit down and eat a steak tonight

was going against every anorexic thought I had.

He replied with,

"Anorexia is for fat people"

I told him him I am doing what ever it takes to change my body,

and with that in mind,

I took my first bite of the steak.

Its been years since I have consumed one...

and I have to say it was very satisfying.

Kind of like a great orgasm.

I just wanted to sit there and relic in the after glow

and it left me wanting it again.