The color Blue

In this world 

Where nothing else is true

Here I am 

Still tangled up in you

Blue from Amanda Delight on Vimeo.

"Carpe diem – "Seize the day, trusting as little as possible in the future", and the ode says that the future is unknowable, and that instead one should scale back one's hopes to a brief future, and drink one's wine. 

Compare with the Biblical "eat, drink and be merry, for tomorrow we die", a conflation, with emphasis on making the most of current opportunities because life is short and time is fleeting – an existential caution." 

Or in my words, one day at a time but enjoy each day as they come:)

Lauren Halvorson

"I'm the girl who believes in the impossible. 

I'm the girl who listens to her heart instead of her mind. 

I'm the girl who trusts her instincts, intuition, and overall feeling. 

I'm the girl who breaks all the rules, yet sets some of her own.

 I'm the girl who never stops wishing, praying, hoping. 

I'm the girl who will keep her promises, who will not make one if it may be broken along the line. 

I'm the girl who wants to be happy...

Im just that girl"

"A skateboard.... I WOULD LOVE THAT. I'd cherish it always. I love damask print.... and my apartment is all black and white with deep turquoise and a bright lighter orange accents.... so anything with any of that combination that inspires you--RUN WITH IT! :) I'm sure I'll love anything you create! I love inspirational words or quotes too... anything you can come up with, I'm sure I'll adore! Thanks girl!" ♥ Lauren

Links For Days

I often communicate online with links. 

Here is my link to prove it.

I have Links for Days Yo!

My Beautiful Boy

"Before you go to sleep,

Say a little prayer,

Every day in every way,

It's getting better and better,

Beautiful,

Beautiful, beautiful,

Beautiful Boy"

I Give Up.

How is that for honesty?

I give up.

The Deadline is Jan. 30, 2009

The calm before the storm.

The storm.

The Goal.

A goal is a dream with a deadline.

Perfect

The last time I walked out of the bedroom that I spent my later childhood/teen years in, I left behind these lyrics hanging in a frame on the wall with the ticket stub from the Alanis concert I had gone too.  I grew up being reminded of how I was never good enough. I was verbally broken down over and over. I told myself that I would never return. So, left these words there to tell my story and now I share them here with you;

"Sometimes is never quite enough

If you're flawless, then you'll win my love

Don't forget to win first place

Don't forget to keep that smile on your face

Be a good boy

Try a little harder

You've got to measure up

And make me prouder

How long before you screw it up

How many times do I have to tell you to hurry up

With everything I do for you

The least you can do is keep quiet

Be a good girl

You've gotta try a little harder

That simply wasn't good enough

To make us proud

I'll live through you

I'll make you what I never was

If you're the best, then maybe so am I

Compared to him compared to her

I'm doing this for your own damn good

You'll make up for what I blew

What's the problem...why are you crying

Be a good boy

Push a little farther now

That wasn't fast enough

To make us happy

We'll love you just the way you are

If you're perfect 

Now all of these years later, this song brings me right back to that room. Only now I stand there a strong and independent woman, laughing at the fool that thought I would fail. Here is what I have to say to that fool, "Go have another drink."  

For Them

For them, on his birthday, I paint their angel! 

Ah Nice

At first I wasn't sure how oil would adhere to the wood, but once I got a few layers on, it started to blend really nice. This pic was taken two hours into the process.  It should be dry enough in a few days to come back and add another layer or two. 

He Doesn't Hear It

A guy friend told me tonight, 

"You give him all the power"

I said, 

"I do give him the power

he can have it

he can have everything

its awful"

He went on to say,

"If there is one thing I have learned its that 3/4 the population of the world is so self absorbed that they have forgotten that they are human.  So busy aquireing things, and hurting others for their own gain, that the real people of the world, the people like you and I, that make this planet move and tick, get trampled in the process, left only to pick up what pieces we have left to emotionally glue back together to have shattered again and again.

So stay tight, stay smileing , and stop playing the papa roach song again and again, he doesnt hear it, he wont ever hear it. but I do. which is how I know what your doing to yourself when I watched you paint to it tonight."

Diablo Freeride Park

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You

I read your words over and over.

They bring me back to that moment in time that I had hope. 

Knowing that God had sent me an angel. 

So perfect 

So true

A man of the people 

Who gives and fights

A humanitarian

And after all this time I still ask God, 

"Why did our paths cross?"

I still don't know

But I am so interested to find out. 

Jay-Z

Jay Z Painting by Amanda Delight from Amanda Delight on Vimeo.

"This ain't a tall order, this is nothing to me

Difficult takes a day, Impossible takes a week

I do this in my sleep,I sold kilo's of %#&@

I'm guessing I can sale CD's

I'm not a businessman,

I'm a Business,Man

Let me handle my business, damn" ~Jay-Z

"Google bring the chorus in, did you get the picture yet,

 I'm painting you a portrait, of young..." 

Forever Young~ Blueprint III, Jay-Z

“…Remind yourself. 

Nobody built like you,

 you design yourself…”

 from A Dream, Blueprint 2

Colors inspired by Blueprint 3

I did this painting live with many people from around the country watching.  I set out to get a good start on it, and once I was done, I was shocked to see that it had only been two hours from start to finish.  I still have a few minor things that I want to fix/add to it...sometimes my work is never finished.  All in all Im very proud of this one! 

The Marley Movement

Im falling in love with the image of Bob Marley. 

I find men in general a challenge, since I have painted women and children most of my career. 

His image holds unique challenges and I am having fun with them.

Horns from her Heart

I have a new friend on Facebook and this is what he wrote;

"Her eyes tell a story so innocent and devilish that I can not look away

She walks the line between a devil and an angel with such grace

Smile so bright and yet horns growing out of her heart

She was once loved, discarded and then torn and ripped apart,

but still hope springs eternal and she looks in my direction

I smile over but know I have skeletons that I don’t want to mention."

~Luke Chouinard

Some Sort of Hybrid

He said, "You are not real are you... your some sort of hybrid...a women who has the hope of a girl and has had the heart break of a lover... and the courage of a fighter. You know people like you are not suppose to even exists...Does the world know how scared of failure you are?"

My response to that was, "Failure is not an option, though welcome to my blog, you have just made it in." 

Advice to Me

Painted live on stickam with much emotion. I went wild with this, all about expressing what I was feeling. Done on 3x3' birch panel with acrylic paint. ~A.Delight

Tonight someone on my "Perfect Man" list 

told me what they thought about me. I cant say as though I agree with it all...though most of it is right on, but I do know that we dont always see our selfs the way others do. With that being said, I take it all into consideration in order to grow. 

"So i think, that you think, you are crazy.. but i know there is a good person behind it all that is very caring... i think that you were really hurt from your first true relationship, but it has gotten you a lot stronger.. i think that you like to stand out and strive to be like others aren't, to be unique.. i know you're a very caring mother and would do anything for your daughter... you say that you don't want a relationship but it makes you stronger being alone isolating yourself from letting a lot of feelings that are built up inside of you out.. you make your life simple by doing this and this protects you from getting hurt because you are in complete control of everything.. it's easier not to take chances of getting hurt than to get into something that could possibly be bad.. 

You're an over achiever and strive on that. You stive on being great, and if things aren't to your expecation then you try harder to succeed. being out of a relationship with only your work and daughter makes it easy because those are two true things that you love, and don't have any outside distractions. i think that you are very happy with your life at this point in time but spend some nights thinking about things that you that you don't let happen, or could have let happen. you're very complicated in nature and that makes it hard for yourself to understand all of your thoughts that pass through your mind each day. 

I don't think that you are 100% happy but you let yourself be that for the time being. i feel you will realize that at some point and have to make big changes to move your life in a different direction, even if it isn't a big one the first time it happens. i think that you do get lonely at times even though you say you don't want a relationship. friends and family are very comforting but that doesn't always satisfy all of your thoughts, concerns, and the unjustifyable thoughts that you have every day..

i just see yourself more the less isolating yourself from so many possibilies that come your way b/c, not to be mean, you are taking the easy way out and are comfortable at the moment with your life."

So I replied to him, "What if I told you I was in love with a man?"

But I had to let him go.