To My Mom

I love you. 

Live life with no regrets and know that everything happens for a reason.  Because of this I am strong, independent and would not change a thing.  I once wrote, 

"I am becoming much greater than the idealistic version of whom you think I am. 

I am a woman that grew up being broken down, only to evolve into a person that has more strength and determination than any man you will meet. A man could never give me what I need, because those are things that only I can obtain on my own.

 I bare the name that was given to me at my birth not of my father or my ex lover, but a name that has been passed down from woman to woman. I am Amanda Delight and I am walking away from love and running with my dreams...and ladies, you can do it too!"

Mom, I know that if you could go back in time, you would do things differently...but I wouldnt want you to.  My past has made me who I am to help build my future.  Whether we can control that or not, thats what destiny is.  

You always were my life line, even though you where half way around the world at times.  And all of these years later and only 12 miles away, you still are.  I honestly dont know what I would do without you. I thank God for you and I am proud to have you as my mother. 

Single?

Tonight I was asked, "Why is it you are single, because of the pics I have seen you are definitely beautiful and shouldnt be"

This is a question I have been asked time and time again. And I have to admit...its a question I have asked others in the past. So here is my response;

I guess the best way I can answer that is, " I choose to be" I like being single. I enjoy the spice of life and the freedom that comes with being single. Relationships are to confined and defined for me. I love meeting new people and exploring my sexual side artistically. I have found in the past that men dont like their girlfriends getting naked in front of a camera or talking to others online. I do these things to promote my self as an artist, to express myself and to grow. So this way, I am free to be me. Not to mention I havent found "the one" (though Im not looking) and until I do, ima keep on, keeping on.

Glow Star by Amanda Delight

Equality

Tonight I was asked if I thought the church had a role in what happened to my marriage along with the question, "If so many people are against marriage in general, then why do you all feel so strongly about gay marriage?"  And this is my response;

Nope the church had no role in what happened in my marriage, I couldnt get him to go to church with me, and I wasnt about to go and have ppl whisper behind my back. I did enough things alone then and I wasnt about to go stand there with a bunch of other "families" with myself lookin like a single parent. What ever happened to the days when the priest would visit I guess is what I was making reference to. When Jared asked around for advice, he listened to "the guys" at the FD that told him to take the direction he did. I guess what Im saying is, if the church wants to save marriage, they should try and save divorce. After my experience, I dont believe in marriage. But I had that right. And I can again if I choose...because Im straight. Now, if I was gay, I should have that same right. Marriage is traditionally tied to a church, but has modern day benefits that we all should have rights to. Just think, I will vote no on 1, and you MAY vote yes...but before 1920, neither of us had that right as women. I just dont feel it is ok to take a group of people and segregate them because of a genetic quality that they have. The Salem witch trials were wrong, slavery was wrong, the holocaust was wrong, Japanese Internment camps were wrong, women oppression was wrong. I just hope that some day when Samantha is older, I can tell her about this and it will seem so ludicrous to her that once upon a time, the churches (a place where god loves "all") supported the governments control and segregation over marriage. Its time for change. 

Vote NO on 1.

A. Lowbrow Delight

Seen for the first time online, this is a 10x10 oil on canvas that I did in 2007. A lowbrow self portrait of me as a child. Yes, my head is severed and hairs are chopped. Art tells a story, that isnt always pretty.

My Love

Never give up hope! Samantha and I got home this morning and walked into our studio, and there he was, all the love Ive been looking for my whole life. He completes me and makes me feel whole. He stays up with me late through the nights and holds all of my dreams steady. Hes always up for a good time and doesnt mind my songs on repeat when I create. Every time I see him, I know that anything is possible. 

Who is he??? 

He is my easel! 

You have to be this and so much more.

1. Have a big heart

2. Live life as a good person

3. Be hard working

5. Give me space to be me and express myself

6. Be creative yourself

7. Make me feel safe

8. Look at me from across the room like there is no one else in the world that compairs to me

9. Have tons of passion

10. Love me and my daughter more than life its self, know the sacrifice it takes to always be our rock and never break our hearts, we are a package deal.

A challenge to my muse

I Can See More Beauty Than You

   ~ by OneMoreOption

I can see more beauty than you
Do you think it’s true?

Let’s have a competition between you and me
To see who can find more beauty to see

And when we think that beauty has run out
Let’s make some of our own with a shout

I want to inspire you in this endeavor against me
Because this is an effort I’m happy to lose, you see

Don’t tell me your inspiration and creations have run dry
If you do, put your back on me and drive

The only way you can become unbeautiful
Is to become invisible

Your beauty is as strong as you put it forward
As unrelenting as your care for others

Show me the eyes that helped teach me to see
Break my heart each day with your memory

Try to see and create more beauty than me
Fill the absences with spice and reverie

It will not matter who wins between you and me
It’s the effort that may benefit everyone we see

I should know better than to touch the fire twice

I'm strong

But I break

I'm stubborn

And I make plenty of mistakes

Yeah I'm hard

And life with me is never easy

To figure out, to love 

I'm jaded but oh so lovely

All you have to do is hold me

And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be 

If you'll trust me, love me, let me

Maybe, maybe

Someday 

When we're at the same place

When we're on the same road

When it's okay to hold my hand

Without feeling lost

Without all the excuses

When it's just because you love me, you let me, you need me

Then maybe, maybe

All you have to do is hold me

And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be 

If you'll trust me, love me, let me

Maybe, maybe

I don't want to be tough
And I don't want to be proud
I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found
I'm not lost 
I need to be loved
I just need to be loved
I just want to be loved by you and I won't stop 'cause I believe
That maybe, yeah maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe, maybe,maybe, yeah maybe
I should know better than to touch the fire twice
But I'm thinking maybe, yeah maybe you might
Maybe, love maybe

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OhWUHlEfY4s&feature=fvw

Biz

Antonio & Guiseppe De Bonis 

(my great grandfather), Shoe Repair.

 Probably mid- to late 1920s. Fall River, MA

I Support Same Sex Marriage

I was one of the first people in the county to put one up. 

Dear Timmy

My floor is covered in brightly colored long strips of canvas that make my heart heart pound and my skin glow. Its a beautiful thing. 

My commissions are stacking up, Im way behind and all I can do is look at these free spirits all around me. Once Im done the commissions Ive taken on, Im not doing any more. Im going to let myself bask in the world of abstraction. Im so far lost in the love of the paint, I dont ever want to return to a world of lines restricted and bound by facial features and skin tones. I feel like Ive sold my soul to the devil and Im floating on a cloud of mist risen from fornication. 

WWAD

Do you see it cause you painted it,

 or do you paint it cause you see it? 

What would Amanda do?

Haters

"and I made myself so easy to love"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sekvzOLYnD4

Lost in Abstraction

Ive crossed over into the dangerous world of abstraction and I dont want to return.  Since I have stepped away from the confined lines of portraiture, I feel more artisticly free more than I ever have before.  For the first time I am using bright and bold colors. 

This makes me believe that art is a reflection of the artist.  Life is worth living while we are alive.  I am free and alive and I dont ever want to feel dead again like I did when I was married. 

Keep it Simple

Scorpio and Capricorn love compatibility 

This union means successful sexual mutual relationships. Scorpio is the more imaginative lover, but Capricorn's stamina is a delightful match. Scorpio's possessiveness spells security to Capricorn. These two work well as a team - Capricorn is highly organized and Scorpio has native shrewdness. The Scorpio is more inventive, while the Capricorn is more patient. Their success in bedroom opens some interesting opportunities. The representatives of both signs have strong will, but the Scorpio is inclined to dominate. The Capricorn must understand, that it happens because of the Scorpio's great love. The connection is usually passionate and marriages are successful.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8p1ZR5P5Mwk

TGIF

It's Friday:

I work I listen I hurt I drive I pay 

I hug I cook I eat I clean I laugh I play

 

I read I sing I dance I text I create

I chat I write I pose I run I move I paint

I think I network I listen I send I tease

I fuck I suck I blow I grab I scream I cum I leave

I tweet I blog I vlog I edit I post I sleep I please

I blink

It's Sunday.

I feel like Ive done nothing.

Amanda Delight Wants to Know

I strive to be something gained 

and so should you.

amandadelight.com

Thats me.

Who are you?

My Perfect Man

Who is he?

What is he like?

He is the combination of others Ive known.

He will be hard working like my grandfather 

and easy going like Oscar

He will have the passion of Christopher

and the humor of Alex

His MoJo will emanate pheromones like those of Ed

And he will be devoted and loyal like Jeremy

He will F*** like Aaron 

and make love like Cassidy

He can make me feel like a goddess on paper 

with the artistic ability of Chris

and he can inspire me to no end like Timmy

He will make me feel young again like D.J. 

and will understand me like J. Knight

he will have musical taste like Bruce

and can dance like Mark

He will be sensitive like my brother

but strong like Paul

his name is...

...to be continued...

My Advice to Jill

I play my hip hop loud through town, dont practice the catholic religion, I dont bake, Im divorced and legally took on my middle name as my last. If I cared what ppl thought of me in this small town, I would be Ms. Willey bringing cookies to catechism. We are who we are Jill and we should never stifle our ways to conform to the masses in order to avoid judgement. You are a good person too! Love that hat of yours by the way!