My Love

Never give up hope! Samantha and I got home this morning and walked into our studio, and there he was, all the love Ive been looking for my whole life. He completes me and makes me feel whole. He stays up with me late through the nights and holds all of my dreams steady. Hes always up for a good time and doesnt mind my songs on repeat when I create. Every time I see him, I know that anything is possible. 

Who is he??? 

He is my easel! 

You have to be this and so much more.

1. Have a big heart

2. Live life as a good person

3. Be hard working

5. Give me space to be me and express myself

6. Be creative yourself

7. Make me feel safe

8. Look at me from across the room like there is no one else in the world that compairs to me

9. Have tons of passion

10. Love me and my daughter more than life its self, know the sacrifice it takes to always be our rock and never break our hearts, we are a package deal.

A challenge to my muse

I Can See More Beauty Than You

   ~ by OneMoreOption

I can see more beauty than you
Do you think it’s true?

Let’s have a competition between you and me
To see who can find more beauty to see

And when we think that beauty has run out
Let’s make some of our own with a shout

I want to inspire you in this endeavor against me
Because this is an effort I’m happy to lose, you see

Don’t tell me your inspiration and creations have run dry
If you do, put your back on me and drive

The only way you can become unbeautiful
Is to become invisible

Your beauty is as strong as you put it forward
As unrelenting as your care for others

Show me the eyes that helped teach me to see
Break my heart each day with your memory

Try to see and create more beauty than me
Fill the absences with spice and reverie

It will not matter who wins between you and me
It’s the effort that may benefit everyone we see

I should know better than to touch the fire twice

I'm strong

But I break

I'm stubborn

And I make plenty of mistakes

Yeah I'm hard

And life with me is never easy

To figure out, to love 

I'm jaded but oh so lovely

All you have to do is hold me

And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be 

If you'll trust me, love me, let me

Maybe, maybe

Someday 

When we're at the same place

When we're on the same road

When it's okay to hold my hand

Without feeling lost

Without all the excuses

When it's just because you love me, you let me, you need me

Then maybe, maybe

All you have to do is hold me

And you'll know and you'll see just how sweet it can be 

If you'll trust me, love me, let me

Maybe, maybe

I don't want to be tough
And I don't want to be proud
I don't need to be fixed and I certainly don't need to be found
I'm not lost 
I need to be loved
I just need to be loved
I just want to be loved by you and I won't stop 'cause I believe
That maybe, yeah maybe
Maybe, yeah maybe, maybe,maybe, yeah maybe
I should know better than to touch the fire twice
But I'm thinking maybe, yeah maybe you might
Maybe, love maybe

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OhWUHlEfY4s&feature=fvw

Biz

Antonio & Guiseppe De Bonis 

(my great grandfather), Shoe Repair.

 Probably mid- to late 1920s. Fall River, MA

I Support Same Sex Marriage

I was one of the first people in the county to put one up. 

Dear Timmy

My floor is covered in brightly colored long strips of canvas that make my heart heart pound and my skin glow. Its a beautiful thing. 

My commissions are stacking up, Im way behind and all I can do is look at these free spirits all around me. Once Im done the commissions Ive taken on, Im not doing any more. Im going to let myself bask in the world of abstraction. Im so far lost in the love of the paint, I dont ever want to return to a world of lines restricted and bound by facial features and skin tones. I feel like Ive sold my soul to the devil and Im floating on a cloud of mist risen from fornication. 

WWAD

Do you see it cause you painted it,

 or do you paint it cause you see it? 

What would Amanda do?

Haters

"and I made myself so easy to love"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sekvzOLYnD4

Lost in Abstraction

Ive crossed over into the dangerous world of abstraction and I dont want to return.  Since I have stepped away from the confined lines of portraiture, I feel more artisticly free more than I ever have before.  For the first time I am using bright and bold colors. 

This makes me believe that art is a reflection of the artist.  Life is worth living while we are alive.  I am free and alive and I dont ever want to feel dead again like I did when I was married. 

Keep it Simple

Scorpio and Capricorn love compatibility 

This union means successful sexual mutual relationships. Scorpio is the more imaginative lover, but Capricorn's stamina is a delightful match. Scorpio's possessiveness spells security to Capricorn. These two work well as a team - Capricorn is highly organized and Scorpio has native shrewdness. The Scorpio is more inventive, while the Capricorn is more patient. Their success in bedroom opens some interesting opportunities. The representatives of both signs have strong will, but the Scorpio is inclined to dominate. The Capricorn must understand, that it happens because of the Scorpio's great love. The connection is usually passionate and marriages are successful.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8p1ZR5P5Mwk

TGIF

It's Friday:

I work I listen I hurt I drive I pay 

I hug I cook I eat I clean I laugh I play

 

I read I sing I dance I text I create

I chat I write I pose I run I move I paint

I think I network I listen I send I tease

I fuck I suck I blow I grab I scream I cum I leave

I tweet I blog I vlog I edit I post I sleep I please

I blink

It's Sunday.

I feel like Ive done nothing.

Amanda Delight Wants to Know

I strive to be something gained 

and so should you.

amandadelight.com

Thats me.

Who are you?

My Perfect Man

Who is he?

What is he like?

He is the combination of others Ive known.

He will be hard working like my grandfather 

and easy going like Oscar

He will have the passion of Christopher

and the humor of Alex

His MoJo will emanate pheromones like those of Ed

And he will be devoted and loyal like Jeremy

He will F*** like Aaron 

and make love like Cassidy

He can make me feel like a goddess on paper 

with the artistic ability of Chris

and he can inspire me to no end like Timmy

He will make me feel young again like D.J. 

and will understand me like J. Knight

he will have musical taste like Bruce

and can dance like Mark

He will be sensitive like my brother

but strong like Paul

his name is...

...to be continued...

My Advice to Jill

I play my hip hop loud through town, dont practice the catholic religion, I dont bake, Im divorced and legally took on my middle name as my last. If I cared what ppl thought of me in this small town, I would be Ms. Willey bringing cookies to catechism. We are who we are Jill and we should never stifle our ways to conform to the masses in order to avoid judgement. You are a good person too! Love that hat of yours by the way! 

Im Not Perfect

Im not very good at:

Reading

Math

Relationships

Landscaping

Wearing my seat belt

Getting up in the morning

Remembering names

Tanning

Saying no

Loosing weight

Playing cards

and

Falling asleep

But one thing Im great at,

is being me.

For Her

I hope some day she knows

how much I sacrificed

and postponed my selfish dreams

to help her grow and raise her right

with pride, strength and self-esteem

She is my passion, inspiration

Love and hope combined

The reason why I get up every day

And the reason why I grind

I cherish every day

She' s my blessing from above

I thank God for her

My one and only true love

Inspired by http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UrD_AUXgTCE

India Arie The Truth

Let me tell you why I love him

Cause he is the truth
Said he is so real
And I love the way that he makes me feel
And if I am a reflection of him then I must be fly cause 
his light it shines so bright I wouldn't lie

I remember the very first day that I saw him
I found myself immediately intrigued by him
Its almost like I knew this man from another life
Like back then maybe I was his husband and maybe he was my wife
And even, the things I don't like about him are fine with me 
Because its not hard for me to understand him because he's so much like me
And its truly my pleasure to share his company
And I know that it's God's gift to breathe the air he breathes

How can the same man that makes me so mad
-do you know what he did-[spoken]
Turn right around and kiss me so soft
-girl do you know what he did-[spoken]
If he ever left me, I wouldn't even be sad, no
Cause there's a blessing in every lesson
And I'm glad that I knew him at all

I love the way he speaks
I love the way he thinks
I love the way he treats his mama
I love that gap in between his teeth 
I love him in every way that a woman can love a man from personal to universal but most of all its unconditional

-you know what I'm talking about-[spoken]
Thats the way I feel
-and I always will

There ain't no substitute for the truth
either it is or isnt
cause he is the truth
you see the truth it, needs no proof
either it is or it isnt 
Cause he is the truth
Now you know the truth by the way it feels
and if I am a reflection of him then I must be fly
cause he is yes he is
I wonder does he know 

Repeat after me.

Im just another rhyme in his time 

and hes just anther painting on my wall.

I went fishing today

I found this on a dating profile today...yes I was looking, dont judge me, judge him! I think its honest, funny, creative and has personality. 

"Termianly frustrated, carbon outdated. Too many one liners. 

Bored with many things or the lack there of. Lovers lost.
Sick of looking. Sick of the same story over and over. 
(thought a few people have called me a liar for telling of my life,
that's amusing, I think nothing so special, sounds so extravagant to
others) I already gave up, I'm here. what ever happens happens, 
Ill keep on keeping on.

oh but this isn't very shiny now is it?
I want our love to be like a rock, a mountain.
I bet you have some crevasses I could get some good hand holds in. 
Im a freestyle climber. That means I'm not into rope. Well not usually. "