Tonight I cooked and ate a steak on my own for the first time ever.
While I was cooking it,
I texted Adam to tell him that I weighed myself at the gym
and I am 7 lbs heaver than when I stepped on the scale a couple months ago.
I told him that I feel like a fatty
and to sit down and eat a steak tonight
was going against every anorexic thought I had.
He replied with,
"Anorexia is for fat people"
I told him him I am doing what ever it takes to change my body,
and with that in mind,
I took my first bite of the steak.
Its been years since I have consumed one...
and I have to say it was very satisfying.
Kind of like a great orgasm.
I just wanted to sit there and relic in the after glow
and it left me wanting it again.