On My Way

At this point, I have lost 69 lbs.

I want my waist and hips to be half the size they are now

and I wont stop until I get there.

Though looking at these,

now I feel dumb taking and posting pics of my body in the mirror,

but I know I will be glad I did so when I reach my goal.

These are a great example of my progress and will also document where I came from.

My Revolution

Its more than a revelation,

Its a personal revolution.

I want to share everything I have

and do with someone else

(other than my daughter)

I want to have companionship

with someone that is real.

Not a room mate

I want more out of life,

than chasing a false dream.

I want to wake up to the same face I fall asleep with.

I want to love someone

and have them love me back.

Im ready for a change.

Im ready for a relationship.

Apply Within

Artist seeks muse.

I think its time I start taking applications.

Glitter In The Air

"Have you ever hated yourself

for staring at the phone?

You're whole life waiting

on the ring

to prove you're not alone"

~Pink

"Getting broken because of men is behind you."

This song makes me think of the future I want.

To some day wake up next to the eyes Im in love with.

To paint them over and over as they watch me from across the room.

But for now, I just want to get to know him.

What I Am Training For

I was asked if Im training for a marathon,

and my answer was,

"No, Im training for many things."

Here is a list of a few of them:

The next time I have sex...and all of the other times to follow.

A future job interview.

The moment in time when I have to slip on a lil black dress

to be someone's arm candy for the night at a black tie affair.

For every first impression.

My next art show.

For every video I want to make.

But most importantly,

for a better future guaranteed by a healthy lifestyle.

And yes, a biathlon...maybe even a triathlon.

The Raw

Audio via http://chrislouis.com/

The Color Blue Round III

The boy in blue sent me this once upon a time

and now I share it with you.

I love you

Tell those whom you care about

that you love them.

Life is too short not to.

A Part of Me

I need my studio.

I crave my paint.

I miss my canvas.

I want a muse to paint on my canvas,

with my paint in my studio.

Until I get that,

a part of me is oooh so empty.

So True

"Take me as I am...or watch me as I go."

This was in my head all day.

It's a little bit funny this feeling inside

I'm not one of those who can easily hide

I don't have much money but boy if I did

I'd buy a big house where we both could live

If I was a sculptor, but then again, no

Or a man who makes potions in a travelling show

I know it's not much but it's the best I can do

My gift is my song and this one's for you

And you can tell everybody this is your song

It may be quite simple but now that it's done

I hope you don't mind

I hope you don't mind that I put down in words

How wonderful life is while you're in the world

I sat on the roof and kicked off the moss

Well a few of the verses well they've got me quite cross

But the sun's been quite kind while I wrote this song

It's for people like you that keep it turned on

So excuse me forgetting but these things I do

You see I've forgotten if they're green or they're blue

Anyway the thing is what I really mean

Yours are the sweetest eyes I've ever seen

~Elton John

Debate Me

Incase I forgot to mention,

I love a good challenge.

☮ Atlantic Beach, NC ☮

I left a lot of stress behind in that water.

Boot Camp Week Three

In 1 min I did:

15 pull ups at 80lbs assist

28 sit ups

24 push ups

47 body squats

39 dips

Decreased weight by 3lbs

I lost 5.75 inches all over

Reduced my body fat by 4.8%

Fallen Angels

I cant explain it

Sometimes I just need it.

And you always seem to know what I need.

But I will never tell you

I tell you lies

when you ask me what I'm thinking of

or wishing for.

I wish for you...

each and every day,

and I secretly hope

that you wish for me too.

Withdrawals

God what I would give to dance,

sing

and paint

in my studio right now.

Im so in the mood to create!

Broken Wings

We fall from the sky

Like angels with broken wings

Crying out into the night

We scream, we fight

~Chris Popp