Tonight I got that run in, here was my view

Track of Trek Training

8-27-10 Bought new rode bike

8-28-10 = 30 miles Rt 1 PI Rd

8-29-10 = 13 miles Rt 1 Van Buren Rd

Total weekend: 43 miles

After three hours of nothingness in my head

as I rolled back into town on mile 29,

this song came into my head.

"I sit and wait does an angel contemplate my fate and do they know the places
Where we go when we're grey and old
'cos I've been told that salvation lets their wings unfold
So when I'm lying in my bed thoughts running through my head
And i feel that love is dead I'm loving angels instead

And through it all he offers me protection a lot of love and affection
Whether I'm right or wrong and down the waterfall
Wherever it may take me I know that life won't break me
When I come to call he won't forsake me I'm loving angels instead

When I'm feeling weak and my pain walks down a one way street I look above
And I know I'll always be blessed with love and as the feeling grows
He breathes flesh to my bones and when love is dead
I'm loving angels instead"

I feel. Im real.

Hi, you've reached Amanda.

Sorry I'm unable to come to the phone right now,

but I'm busy wearing ear plugs to his song,

listening to the universe,

feeling the wind on my face

and living in the moment.

Now excuse me,

I have a bike to ride.

Blank

I am creatively uninspired,

dead in the water of nothingness.

Blank.

The well is empty

and its been a drought for a very long time.

Football Season 101

Here is what I know/like about football:

Sexy hot men wear these tight lil pants

and once in a while I get to see one smack the other on the ass,

and that is fantastic!

The End.

The boss just braided my hair

and Ive been instructed

to wear it to work tomorrow....

I need to see this

I love my Brothers

Dover, NH

Kasso

For my artist friends

and all you others

that find my mind

and elapsed time

interesting.

Poem by Jamie Caldwell

LOOKING FORWARD

"You've spread your wings

and learned how to fly

your putting your past behind you

your limits now the sky

You have a beautiful daughter

who's always inspired you

you always reach for the stars

and you've taught her to do that too

Samantha has always come first

but your arts not far behind

a new destination awaits you somewhere

new experiences you soon will find

You've had your share of ups and downs

but you've always held your head high

nobody will ever hold you back again

I wouldn't want to even see someone try

You bring stories to life and keep memories alive

in the art pieces you choose to do

with each stroke on your canvas

through your eyes we see something new

Follow your dreams wherever they may take you

I wish you and "the boss" the best for the years ahead

many more lives I'm sure you will touch

wherever you are led"

~JAMIE CALDWELL

So when 21 days

of trying to break a habit

doesnt work?

What do I do,

because Im still addicted to you.

For DJ Babbidge

I only kiss assholes

that are emotionally unavailable

and live out of state.

Profile pic for facebook

I cant be your friend, it hurts too much.

First Friday Art Walk with Amanda Delight

My first muse, my daughter

On the opposite wall

In the front windows with the poster I designed

Sitting with a friend

People walking in

The Bar

Playing Pool

amandadelight.com

Waiting

My greatest inspiration is love,

and I cant wait to fall for it again.

The Boss

Love the way you lie lyrics

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Borrowed Time

Im going on two years and giving up.
Its hopeless.

I cant seem to get out of this town

or find a man here that would make it worth it.

Im tired of being lied to.

Im tired of being the last option.

Im worth it.

Im better than that.

....I had a breakdown this week.

I left work without telling my coworkers

and went and cried in the woods for hours

as the rain poured on me.

Though Im ok now,

I still can feel the rain.