Why I Hate Religion, But Love Jesus || Spoken Word

The Struggle With Self Image

After being posted on facebook for 2 days, this photo got 19 likes and 27 comments. Photos like this get the most attention (maybe for the confidence I elude) yet this isnt the real me. This photo is distorted from perspective and my cloths are hiding my skins distortion from pregnancy and years of over eating. Here is my question. Without the photos, how do I get men to see the real me? I would like to think regardless of my shape or size someone would like me for me. Yet...Im shown time and time again in the dating world that this isnt true. If I loose 20 lbs and remove the loose skin will that help? Better yet, can a man be attracted to a woman that is permanently physically scared by another man?

Im so tired of not being good enough.

Note to self

"It wasn't the fall that killed him.

It was the sudden stop."

Dont stop doing what you love.

Take chances and risks!

Free yourself from the lines you sketch

and boundaries others set.

You took the leap,

now its time to keep going!

Know Your Worth, I Know Mine

You are beautiful.

You are talented.

You have so much to offer

and you deserve the very basic in life from a partner.

If they can't even pay attention to you,

its time to move on.

This is what I tell myself and

you should do the same.

You Inspire Me.

I have a plan

While going over my food intake tonight with Adam,

I confessed I had no carbs or fiber today.

My excuse was the day was unplanned.

He told me,

"In oder to achieve success,

you must have a plan"

But, tonight I got another 25 miles in on the bike...

The goal for the week is to drop 3 lbs.

What is your goal for the week??

Pay It Forward

Since "Santa" stuck a card on the bulletin board for me at work...

with a very large amount of cash in it,

I decided to pay it forward.

I painted this for a co-worker tonight

and hope to surprise her with it tomorrow.

It is a portrait of her infant Granddaughter that has been fighting cancer.

Merry Christmas everyone,

tonight I was in my element and enjoyed every minute of it!

Always Remember:

Cause in the color of portrait world I know that Ive got it all.

Everything does happen for a reason and for that,

I am truly grateful.

Never loose hope when things go wrong

...even if it takes years for the rain clouds to go away.

It Gets Better. Choose life!

Casey Ford Alexander

This is brilliant work by

Casey Ford Alexander,

from the edit to the narration.

I love the whole concept.

This depicts our world today

with social networks and

the intricate ways we are evolving

with our communication and relationships with one another.

To fully understand the creative intent,

you must watch both videos:

I woke up with this in my head.

Afraid

I want someone to love me.

To enjoy me long enough to understand the full me.

So how do I make the change in myself to get what my soul is longing for?

Over and over Im left with what I dont want.

Lies, broken promises, an empty bed and a broken heart.

Im to the point I dont know what to do and Im afraid to try again.

Fitness Challenge

The Way I See It

When single, I think we are always secretly looking,

regardless if we say we want a relationship or not.

For its the person we are looking for

and not the title or label of our interactions we seek.

Its the difference between those that settle for the relationship

vs

those that choose to be with the right person.

What is Love?

Something so powerful and intricate its hard to articulate

but let me tell you this:

Its touch can put me to sleep

and its absence keeps me up through the night.

Yet its what gets me out of bed in the morning

and makes me work hard.

It strikes an emotion so deep in me,

its the greatest con artist I know.

Love made me commit and sacrifice my dreams,

Yet it was love that made me start all over.

It can not be bought or sold.

Its pure and without a doubt the most wanted thing on this planet.

Its what we think we have...but don't

Its a master of disguise.

Love is magical

Love will make you delirious and blind.

It will make you high and intoxicated,

its potion can take away your appetite, even your breath.

Love is what makes us human.

Love makes us feel alive.

I believe its the basis of every emotion we feel and express.

Love, it means all of this and so much more.

Thinking of my father tonight

I miss the sound of him singing and playing

and I hope he still does.