Pressing Stop

Stop being available at all hours of the night and day

only to be ignored when you have something

valuable, meaningful and important to say

Stop giving away your talent

Stop giving away your love.

Stop waiting for him to see you

Your star will shine brighter

once you remove yourself from his shadow.

Stop making excuses.

If he was really your friend he would treat you better.

He would care.

Stop being there.

Stop being that girl.

He wasn't there

He doesn't care

So why should you?

STOP

and smell the roses.

Have You Ever...

Talked to yourself so much that you are sick of hearing your own voice?

I have.

Im hitting the mute button.

Check One Two

Just reading over my blog.

Ugh.

Who is this?

Not me.

All this talk about love, life and happiness.

My head is out of the clouds and even Im annoyed by me.

Im starting to feel bad for whom ever has read this.

Sorry!

...I need to get back to my art.

Telling me to go

With all that I am and all that I have

Im lost with no direction.

Why?

Why hasnt someone come along,

grabbed my hand

and said,

"follow me"

I want to be with someone that enjoys me

I have this passion for life and people

a passion that allows me to fall madly deeply in love

with the spirt of the person I adore

But for some reason,

I go to bed every night with my mac and blackberry

So Im still on a mission.

I mission to make myself happy

and find a place to call home.

Lay some roots.

I am turning over every stone here before I go though

and so far I have found nothing.

Only a path that is leading me one way

far far away.

I told Mr. Hope I was going to NYC

And this is what he said,

"You realize there is a time and place for soul searching

and then there is pushing the limits of your fascination

with something that isn't necessarily real

by doing something stupid."

Im Waiting

A True Love
is When You Can Love Someone Without Seeing Them...
Without Holding Them..
When it is Enough to Exist in This Space and Time...
and Wait for the Hour...
the Perfect Time to Bring Your Union
~Victoria Glenn

Hey Young World

"Expecting the world to treat you fairly

because you are a good person

is a little like expecting a bull not to attack you

because you are a vegetarian”

~Author Unknown

War Paint

Sometimes I wonder if love is worth fighting for,

but then I see your face and I'm ready for war.

“Life is a choice."

Choose life today.

Face your fears.

Take a risk.

Think outside the box.

Do what you love.

Share your passions with people.

Inspire.

Use your talents.

Say what you mean.

Love with abandon.

Go for it!

Ask questions.

Give answers.

Be present.

Be Creative.

Be your own person.

Live life!

What Will She Say With Her Microphone?

So Samantha wants a real microphone. Her favorite song right now is Handlebars by The Flobots. Theres a line that says, "I can lead a nation with a microphone." I told her if she can learn all the words to the song I would buy her one. Even though she doesnt know who Leif Ericson is or know all the words to "De Colores" ...shes giving me a run for my money! Cant wait to record her doing it! ~So cute.

Im watching tutorials.

I AM, my best investment.

I Never Told You

God, I just look at his smile and it seems so clear.

So obvious to me that he stands alone.

He is perfection.

The good and the bad.

I enjoy who he is.

Everything about him.

With this in mind,

how or why would I even look further?

Because I could never tell him.

Tonight He Made Me Smile

"Sometimes what we want isn't what we need

and was only given to serve some purpose for a time.

God may be taking you somewhere else.

Let go and let God.

Time can heal wounds if you let it..."

~Cherice Stanley

Love at first sight

Over the years I have been asked if I believe in love at first sight.

I never knew how to answer that...

mainly because I often would question the ulterior motive of the men asking me the question.

Here is what I have concluded.

Do you see because you believe,

or do you believe because you see?

I have seen it.

I have been there.

I have felt it.

Though its taken me a long time to figure out the catch

and now I will share it with you.

It has to be mutual.

Tonight I came alive again.

I spent my lunch break at my storage cube today.

I wanted to see my paints

as if they were incarcerated...

it feels as though they are.

I went to grab one.

The gold can,

then I saw the pinks and the purples

and I couldn't bare to take just one

and my hands couldn't hold them all.

So I told them,

"Don't worry, I will return for all of you!"

And I did.

Tonight I painted.

Master My Monet

"The moment that you commit to living your dream(s)

despite any outside influence

is the moment you have mastered your life..."

What a stupid holiday.

It takes one sperm to be a father. It takes a whole lot more than DNA to be a dad. In 24 hours, 120 million sperm are produced. Im glad he had at least one that was not retarded from his addictions that made it to my healthy perfection of an egg. Happy freaking fathers day everyone.

21 is a great age.

Happy Birthday Brandon.

Mount Katahdin

The highest peek in all of New England

and the end of the Appalachian Trail!

Baxter State Park has over 200 miles of hiking trails in some of the wildest and most spectacular terrain in New England. Some of the trails are over 100 years old and the Park provides a variety of hiking trails from an easy hike to Big and Little Niagara Falls to a strenuous all-day climb to Baxter Peak. We hiked from 0930 to 2100. We made it 5,267 feet in elevation!

Why Did I Even Bother?

So I made the account yesterday

and I go to log on just now and get this...

"There is a problem with your account.

Please contact customer care at 1-800 blah blah"

Let me guess,

they think my name and whole profile is fake.

While uploading my professional pics,

they kept deleting them saying they were fake.

Ugh.

I dont have time for this.

I should have known.

Fuck it.

Less drama anyways being single.

Heres your sign.