TGIF

It's Friday:

I work I listen I hurt I drive I pay 

I hug I cook I eat I clean I laugh I play

 

I read I sing I dance I text I create

I chat I write I pose I run I move I paint

I think I network I listen I send I tease

I fuck I suck I blow I grab I scream I cum I leave

I tweet I blog I vlog I edit I post I sleep I please

I blink

It's Sunday.

I feel like Ive done nothing.

Amanda Delight Wants to Know

I strive to be something gained 

and so should you.

amandadelight.com

Thats me.

Who are you?

My Perfect Man

Who is he?

What is he like?

He is the combination of others Ive known.

He will be hard working like my grandfather 

and easy going like Oscar

He will have the passion of Christopher

and the humor of Alex

His MoJo will emanate pheromones like those of Ed

And he will be devoted and loyal like Jeremy

He will F*** like Aaron 

and make love like Cassidy

He can make me feel like a goddess on paper 

with the artistic ability of Chris

and he can inspire me to no end like Timmy

He will make me feel young again like D.J. 

and will understand me like J. Knight

he will have musical taste like Bruce

and can dance like Mark

He will be sensitive like my brother

but strong like Paul

his name is...

...to be continued...

My Advice to Jill

I play my hip hop loud through town, dont practice the catholic religion, I dont bake, Im divorced and legally took on my middle name as my last. If I cared what ppl thought of me in this small town, I would be Ms. Willey bringing cookies to catechism. We are who we are Jill and we should never stifle our ways to conform to the masses in order to avoid judgement. You are a good person too! Love that hat of yours by the way! 

Im Not Perfect

Im not very good at:

Reading

Math

Relationships

Landscaping

Wearing my seat belt

Getting up in the morning

Remembering names

Tanning

Saying no

Loosing weight

Playing cards

and

Falling asleep

But one thing Im great at,

is being me.

For Her

I hope some day she knows

how much I sacrificed

and postponed my selfish dreams

to help her grow and raise her right

with pride, strength and self-esteem

She is my passion, inspiration

Love and hope combined

The reason why I get up every day

And the reason why I grind

I cherish every day

She' s my blessing from above

I thank God for her

My one and only true love

Inspired by http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UrD_AUXgTCE

India Arie The Truth

Let me tell you why I love him

Cause he is the truth
Said he is so real
And I love the way that he makes me feel
And if I am a reflection of him then I must be fly cause 
his light it shines so bright I wouldn't lie

I remember the very first day that I saw him
I found myself immediately intrigued by him
Its almost like I knew this man from another life
Like back then maybe I was his husband and maybe he was my wife
And even, the things I don't like about him are fine with me 
Because its not hard for me to understand him because he's so much like me
And its truly my pleasure to share his company
And I know that it's God's gift to breathe the air he breathes

How can the same man that makes me so mad
-do you know what he did-[spoken]
Turn right around and kiss me so soft
-girl do you know what he did-[spoken]
If he ever left me, I wouldn't even be sad, no
Cause there's a blessing in every lesson
And I'm glad that I knew him at all

I love the way he speaks
I love the way he thinks
I love the way he treats his mama
I love that gap in between his teeth 
I love him in every way that a woman can love a man from personal to universal but most of all its unconditional

-you know what I'm talking about-[spoken]
Thats the way I feel
-and I always will

There ain't no substitute for the truth
either it is or isnt
cause he is the truth
you see the truth it, needs no proof
either it is or it isnt 
Cause he is the truth
Now you know the truth by the way it feels
and if I am a reflection of him then I must be fly
cause he is yes he is
I wonder does he know 

Repeat after me.

Im just another rhyme in his time 

and hes just anther painting on my wall.

I went fishing today

I found this on a dating profile today...yes I was looking, dont judge me, judge him! I think its honest, funny, creative and has personality. 

"Termianly frustrated, carbon outdated. Too many one liners. 

Bored with many things or the lack there of. Lovers lost.
Sick of looking. Sick of the same story over and over. 
(thought a few people have called me a liar for telling of my life,
that's amusing, I think nothing so special, sounds so extravagant to
others) I already gave up, I'm here. what ever happens happens, 
Ill keep on keeping on.

oh but this isn't very shiny now is it?
I want our love to be like a rock, a mountain.
I bet you have some crevasses I could get some good hand holds in. 
Im a freestyle climber. That means I'm not into rope. Well not usually. "

I Want This in Him

“I am nothing special of this I am sure. I am just a common man with common thoughts. There are no monuments dedicated to me, and my name will soon be forgotten. But I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, that has always been enough.” 

Nicholas Sparks-The Notebook-

Love

Ever been in love??? Its the best of the best and the worst of the worst when experiencing the emotions that come with and without it. Love can make the world go round and it can stop you in your tracks. 

My Advice to Emanon

When you said to me, 

"I have to let go of my hope and just deal with what is. My reality is, we aren't together and may never be again. I have lost a friend, and a lover and one of the deepest connections I have ever had to any woman ever."

I told you, "I hear and relate to every word." and I really do! I have you in my phone as Mr. Hope.  Don't ever give up on hope. I feel as though I have, for these same reasons, and its a very cynical place to be. I feel like its an odd phenomena that happens when you love someone for all that they are and the feelings aren't mutual. It almost seems as though they don't see the big picture, so you tell yourself that they do love you but for what ever reason, they choose not to act on it. Either way, it leaves you feeling empty, alone, unwanted and not good enough. 

I dont have all of the answers. All I can say is that you are a wonderful person, Ive seen the greatness in you ever since I was that shy, soft spoken girl in the back of the class. I'll say to you what Im trying to tell myself. If she cant see how great you are, then you shouldnt want her. You need to "be with the person that thanks God for you." We both deserve someone that will love every aspect of us, the good and the bad. Someone that will support us in our goals and help us reach them. 

But most importantly, you need to "do you" Ever since Ive been focused on recreating my life to better myself emotionally, mentally, and physically, everything else is falling into place. Ive been saying, " I am becoming much greater than the idealistic version of whom you think I am" because I want to live life and live it better than ever before.  If she is going to be "the one" for you. Dont worry, she will be back. So take this time for you. Become greater than that idealistic version of who she thinks you are because it will be you that gains the most...but above all, please dont loose hope. After all, finding true love depends on it!

My Art

All of my career I have been inspired by the spirit of the people around me, therefore I am a portrait artist at heart. However, after many muses, my daughter being the greatest, I am slowly moving to the untamed world of abstraction. I have enjoyed combining the two forms together using traditional oil painting techniques with modern mixed media. 

I want to be know for giving of myself and asking for nothing in return. It always comes back to the people in my opinion. I want to move people and have them express emotions. I feel it all, the good and the bad. We are here to live life and learn lessons. I am a good person, and I want my art to reflect that. Its not about technique, color or composition. People that cant see beyond that, miss the point I was tryin to make. 

Delight

I bare the name that was given to me at my birth not of my father or my ex lover, but a name that has been passed down from woman to woman. I am Amanda Delight and I am becoming much greater than the idealistic version of whom you think I am. I am passing on my creativity, strength and name to my own daughter and that no one can take away.

Launch

Here comes Amanda Delight's prolific period, round II. It consists of more bright colors than ever before as she dabbles into the world of abstraction. Its the rebirth of her inspiration born from the paint its self, instead of being driven from a muse. This period will be a turning point in her career because this inspiration comes from within. This is all new untapped territory in the studio of Amanda Delight. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dNZ8zwot7ns

Do you ever?

Ever wish that he would see it your way?

Ever want to run so far away?

Ever pray to God to give you just one more day?

My Advice to Dale

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XsovXU9OxVw

"Nobody wants to be anyones option." 

Your words are so true and heart felt. You are a good person inside and out. I feel as though one day you will find what you have been searching for and at that moment, your purpose here in earth will all make sense. 

Life has so many wonderful things to offer us each day and it would be a shame if we didnt absorb them. I love your willingness to try new things and meet new people. Just the fact that you will travel alone and explore this world every chance you can get is unique and admirable. But most of all I think that we are here to learn and we have the opportunity to learn the most from the people that come and go from our daily routines. 

You know me, I say "keep it movin" but really what I mean is, there is hope and never give up. Being someone's "option" should never be an option for you. You are to special to sit around and wait for others to pick you. I obviously dont have all of the answers, because I  sit and row the same boat as you, so just know that you're not rowing alone. 

As Lil Wayne says in The Game, 

"Im grindin til Im tired

They say "You aint grindin til you tired"

So Im grindin with my eyes wide

Looking to find

A way through the day

A light for the night"

Jim

“That's what real love amounts to- letting a person be what he really is. Most people love you for who you pretend to be. To keep their love, you keep pretending- performing. You get to love your pretence. It's true, we're locked in an image, an act” 

-Jim Morrison

Life

Life isnt about the who, where, when and why. Its about the you, here, now and I. ~A.Delight

My Advise To Renee

This is the way life should be, no commitment, no rules, no strings. When I was married, I use to look at people that were single and had no plans of settling down and think, "they must be so unhappy, and will never be happy until they find someone to share their life with."

Now that I have walked in their shoes, I realize that people like that, have it all figured out.  Being completely free from a relationship has let me enjoy life more than any other point in my life. I don't need a man to complete me or give me a false sense of who I am. My identity is not tainted with a title other than my own. Its a wonderful thing to be me and do me. 

To some this take on life may seem cocky or arrogant, and my response to that is, "Its okay to envy me, most do!" 

There is nothing wrong with being a strong and independent woman that has it all, a great career, a nice home, a beautiful child and anything else you want to get out of life. You can do it all without the help of any man.