I Want This in Him

“I am nothing special of this I am sure. I am just a common man with common thoughts. There are no monuments dedicated to me, and my name will soon be forgotten. But I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, that has always been enough.” 

Nicholas Sparks-The Notebook-

Love

Ever been in love??? Its the best of the best and the worst of the worst when experiencing the emotions that come with and without it. Love can make the world go round and it can stop you in your tracks. 

My Advice to Emanon

When you said to me, 

"I have to let go of my hope and just deal with what is. My reality is, we aren't together and may never be again. I have lost a friend, and a lover and one of the deepest connections I have ever had to any woman ever."

I told you, "I hear and relate to every word." and I really do! I have you in my phone as Mr. Hope.  Don't ever give up on hope. I feel as though I have, for these same reasons, and its a very cynical place to be. I feel like its an odd phenomena that happens when you love someone for all that they are and the feelings aren't mutual. It almost seems as though they don't see the big picture, so you tell yourself that they do love you but for what ever reason, they choose not to act on it. Either way, it leaves you feeling empty, alone, unwanted and not good enough. 

I dont have all of the answers. All I can say is that you are a wonderful person, Ive seen the greatness in you ever since I was that shy, soft spoken girl in the back of the class. I'll say to you what Im trying to tell myself. If she cant see how great you are, then you shouldnt want her. You need to "be with the person that thanks God for you." We both deserve someone that will love every aspect of us, the good and the bad. Someone that will support us in our goals and help us reach them. 

But most importantly, you need to "do you" Ever since Ive been focused on recreating my life to better myself emotionally, mentally, and physically, everything else is falling into place. Ive been saying, " I am becoming much greater than the idealistic version of whom you think I am" because I want to live life and live it better than ever before.  If she is going to be "the one" for you. Dont worry, she will be back. So take this time for you. Become greater than that idealistic version of who she thinks you are because it will be you that gains the most...but above all, please dont loose hope. After all, finding true love depends on it!

My Art

All of my career I have been inspired by the spirit of the people around me, therefore I am a portrait artist at heart. However, after many muses, my daughter being the greatest, I am slowly moving to the untamed world of abstraction. I have enjoyed combining the two forms together using traditional oil painting techniques with modern mixed media. 

I want to be know for giving of myself and asking for nothing in return. It always comes back to the people in my opinion. I want to move people and have them express emotions. I feel it all, the good and the bad. We are here to live life and learn lessons. I am a good person, and I want my art to reflect that. Its not about technique, color or composition. People that cant see beyond that, miss the point I was tryin to make. 

Delight

I bare the name that was given to me at my birth not of my father or my ex lover, but a name that has been passed down from woman to woman. I am Amanda Delight and I am becoming much greater than the idealistic version of whom you think I am. I am passing on my creativity, strength and name to my own daughter and that no one can take away.

Launch

Here comes Amanda Delight's prolific period, round II. It consists of more bright colors than ever before as she dabbles into the world of abstraction. Its the rebirth of her inspiration born from the paint its self, instead of being driven from a muse. This period will be a turning point in her career because this inspiration comes from within. This is all new untapped territory in the studio of Amanda Delight. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dNZ8zwot7ns

Do you ever?

Ever wish that he would see it your way?

Ever want to run so far away?

Ever pray to God to give you just one more day?

My Advice to Dale

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XsovXU9OxVw

"Nobody wants to be anyones option." 

Your words are so true and heart felt. You are a good person inside and out. I feel as though one day you will find what you have been searching for and at that moment, your purpose here in earth will all make sense. 

Life has so many wonderful things to offer us each day and it would be a shame if we didnt absorb them. I love your willingness to try new things and meet new people. Just the fact that you will travel alone and explore this world every chance you can get is unique and admirable. But most of all I think that we are here to learn and we have the opportunity to learn the most from the people that come and go from our daily routines. 

You know me, I say "keep it movin" but really what I mean is, there is hope and never give up. Being someone's "option" should never be an option for you. You are to special to sit around and wait for others to pick you. I obviously dont have all of the answers, because I  sit and row the same boat as you, so just know that you're not rowing alone. 

As Lil Wayne says in The Game, 

"Im grindin til Im tired

They say "You aint grindin til you tired"

So Im grindin with my eyes wide

Looking to find

A way through the day

A light for the night"

Jim

“That's what real love amounts to- letting a person be what he really is. Most people love you for who you pretend to be. To keep their love, you keep pretending- performing. You get to love your pretence. It's true, we're locked in an image, an act” 

-Jim Morrison

Life

Life isnt about the who, where, when and why. Its about the you, here, now and I. ~A.Delight

My Advise To Renee

This is the way life should be, no commitment, no rules, no strings. When I was married, I use to look at people that were single and had no plans of settling down and think, "they must be so unhappy, and will never be happy until they find someone to share their life with."

Now that I have walked in their shoes, I realize that people like that, have it all figured out.  Being completely free from a relationship has let me enjoy life more than any other point in my life. I don't need a man to complete me or give me a false sense of who I am. My identity is not tainted with a title other than my own. Its a wonderful thing to be me and do me. 

To some this take on life may seem cocky or arrogant, and my response to that is, "Its okay to envy me, most do!" 

There is nothing wrong with being a strong and independent woman that has it all, a great career, a nice home, a beautiful child and anything else you want to get out of life. You can do it all without the help of any man. 

Dream

In the studio I paint my dreams,

 but in bed I live them. 

-A.Delight

Live and Learn.

Life is so interesting. The people I meet along my journey, enrich my understanding of my purpose here on earth. Whether the encounter is brief in passing or takes place over several months, even years of connections, my appreciation for everything I learn grows throughout time as I age. Ive learned to push away the evil but rejoice in the fact that I can eliminate it from my life. Ive learned to cherish the good, but Im wise enough to know that the great things in life can be so fragile, they can disappear in an instant. Life is good. I love all it brings, including the assholes and the angles. Which one are you?

My Advise To Eric

Move on, don't trust and when "the one" comes along, you will know.  That person will support you in all you do and love everything about you effortlessly.  Love just happens and if its not love, then its just fun to fill a void or to let the time pass till you meet "the one."  So build up your walls and turn off the emotions. Live life and live it well!

For My Muse

Please don't kiss me so sweet

it makes me crave a thousand kisses to follow

And please don't touch me like that

makes every other embrace seem pale and shallow

Please don't look at me like that

It just makes me want to make you near me always

~Jewel

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dUGsHALwNfM

For Sarah n John

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9B4JQn6VdVc

Cap

What it's Like to Date a Capricorn Woman:

Deep inside, she is romantic and loving but it takes the right man to expose this. On the outside, she may seem like she does not care much for love. The Capricorn woman is perfect for the man who likes a challenge. It will take time to get closer to her, never make her rush into a relationship. Be patient because she is. Capricorn woman is very classy, upscale woman. You have to woo her and court her like a lady. Shower her with nice gifts (but not too expensive, she is a very conservative spender and expects you to be also). She will dominate and control the relationship but in her intriguing subtle way, let her take the lead, she won't steer you wrong! She will lead the relationship in the right direction because she is smart and practical. She will offer you a long lasting, real, loyal relationship with all the right ingredients for happiness.

Capricorn in a Nutshell:

Capricorns are very ambitious people, they always have something they are pursuing and they want their lives to be fulfilled and important. Capricorns are extremely patient and will wait a long time for something they want, when the opportunity arises, they will plan their steps carefully to others, they might appear hesitant but this is not true, they know that there is only one chance to succeed and they are filing together their information to take the proper steps to accomplish their goal with flying colors, not just second rate. Capricorns have a very active mind and strong powers of concentration. Capricorns like being in control of their surroundings and everyone in their life. Capricorns are very cautious but this only to survey the situation before leaping in, they will never make a hasty jump in. They accept change but introduce it slowly so they can get used to it and incorporate it into their life. Capricorns tend to see life in black or white, definitive's only. There are no gray areas for these are areas that are not understood and this makes Capricorn feel uncomfortable. They tend to be in control in a romantic relationship that way they are never vulnerable to another person.

"Look at what I found" he said.

"Grinding to the music,

The bass carries me away.

As the sweat rolls down my back

I begin to fade away."

A.DELIGHT 1999

I wrote this for a friend in 1999. He sent it back to me in an email the other day and said,

"I think you are the most sensual person I have ever known...probably will ever know. Damn artist."

Album Art

"When she paints she sings with her hands." ~Rich Munnnich

Music plays a key role in the artistic process for Amanda Delight. When she hears a song that inspires her, she will play it over and over for hours on end while she paints. Amanda feels that musicians express them selfs in song the same way she does with paint. This series is a tribute to the talented people that have inspired her to create.

This is artist Danyl Geneciran, a talented singer-songwriter that inspired me to paint him. After viewing my live webcam as I painted him, Danyl asked me how much the painting was because he liked it and wanted to buy it. I told him, 

"Its not for sale!

Because im giving it to you!

Just promise me u will keep doin what you do!

God gave us both talents to share with the world!

Plus, Im glad you like it!"

To My Muse

Im real because of you...Jaded by experience and more wise for the future versions of you. - A.Delight